Thank you

Alhamdulillah... 
i'm happy with my life right now
i have my only one family, who always support and non-stop in giving love
i have my only one bear (boyfriend) i called him bear because he looks like a bear. HAHA! no la sayang.. <3 
i have an amazing friends that always tell jokes and stories fill my day here.. 
6 months left then i'm leaving campus life. i'll be back to camps life in 2 3 years. i need to gain some money. i don't want depending on my parent's money forever. insyaallah everything will go as i plan. 
it's already 7 months since we've together, sayang. i'm grateful enough to have you by my side everyday even though you're far from me. but hearing your voice is enough. baby is coming to meet me... i'm excited. O.... M......G... It feels like the first time. 
alhamdulillah after what i've been through these past months, i found him. and everthing turned into good. 

She is.... another someone in my life.

Okay, hey there everyone. Well, this is another memory that will be flashing back (in a bit), compliment, appreciation, love and she forced me to write this. HAHAHA!. okay, okay i know you guys already curious who SHE is. She is NISA. emmm full name is DAYANGKU KHAIRUNNISA BINTI AWG HASSAN (did i spell your name correctly,nisa? hehe). what should i tell about her, anyway? emmm let me think first. where i should start this? okay, let me make a list about her emm a bit about her and whole thing why i love her. hehe (sweet enough?) 

• She's beautiful and gorgeous. what? Don't believe me? i will put her picture. 
• i've known him for like more than 2 years.
• at first, we don't close like now. well, we were kinda with our own stuff. 
• she likes food
• she likes fashion (do you, nisa?) emmm kinda... hehe
• she's sarawakian
• but.... believe she's really fluent in speaking sabah. really! you would think that she's sabahan if you don't know her better. 
• The way she speaks is really smooth and soft, she doesn't curse like i did. hehe. but once she get angry she will curse. emmm a bit. well, everyone does, though. 
• she likes pizza, what else? 
• she gets panic easily.. emmm i don't know why but once she gets panic, she looks funny! HAHAHA! 
• she always keep her problem with her own. some people that she already trust, she will tell the whole thing likeeeee meeeee~ :D. oh my~~ i'm so touched *okay i'm gonna cry* 
• she loves to sing... emmmm do you? like so far
• she wants everything she does is in arrange in a perfect way. i mean like PERFECT! 
• she's simple. whatever she wears is simple but look pretty on her.
• she eats whatever she wants as long she won't die from hunger. 
• she must take her breakfast, lunch, and dinner. i mean like MUST!
• she doesn't do diet. no no no no, no need. you're already in great shape. 
• i love her likeeeeeeee..... *countless* this. hehehe
• she's bad in sharing problem.... emmmm really bad. even i feel bad whenever she has problem, well i can see if she's okay or not. but i won't ask because i know at the end, she will tell :P don't you? hehe
• she likes her hair. she used to tell that 'no one mess with my hair' but someone did! :P
• she's good in spending money :P
• she likes shopping.
• always wake me up every morning go to class. one hour early, MUST! 
• she hates najwa latif.
• i always sing annoyingly just want to annoyed her! ahhhhh i feel good. especially when i sing 'sayang by shea', there's one part i made my own rhythm. HAHAHA!
• PLEASE do not speak harsh to her. she might get hurt. i always be careful with that. 
• emmm and do not try make her remember things that she wants to forget. her expression will automatically change. huuuuu creepy~~ 
• when she stress, she will sing likeeeeeeeeeee hellllll! oh oh oh oh! 
• don't make her overthink, headache definitely attack her! don't stress her out! 
• she loves travelling and explore something new
• boyfriend? emmm no comment. 
• she's friendly to everyone. don't worry, once you saw her face... you will the calmnesss. cehhhh! hehe
• she's always in rushing. emmm sometimes
• she forced me to do cover. emmmm i don't think i'm talented enough.
• she loves me like i do. OF COURSE! if not, emmmm it's okay. i know who i am :( not capable enough to be loved. 

okay, that's all about her. there's a lot but nahhhh i'm tired. i will tell someone else i love. please no heart feeling. nisa paksa aku tulis ni. :P love you! 
Adios. xoxo! 

SO FAR

Assalammualaikum readers, 

long time didn't update my blog. been busy.. emm actually not. i'm kinda lazy updating blog. so, i was came up with something to write. been 2 years being a student. so many things happened. especially lately. the more i grow up, the more i missed my family. well, to be honest i never feel like this lately. the more i grow up, the more i can see of 'the truth of human's color'. the more i grow up, the more i know what is people always say 'don't judge book by it's cover'. 1 year to go, then i able finish my diploma. i will miss my friends. they're like family. treating me real good. always be there no matter thick and thin. they said 'you will inherit the strength of your family'. yes, i did. i think i'm strong enough to endure, to through this life. i like helping people in solving their problems, motivate them, get know them and ask them what i can help. but when people ask me 'what's wrong?', i just can say 'i'm okay, everything is cool'. i don't know how to share my problem. i don't want burden anyone. my mother did the same thing but she's keep going walking in this life. my mother always said 'when someone is counting on you, there's a time you have to stand and keep going'. i still remember when i was a kid, my dad always remind me 'don't count with anyone because at the end, you will not see anyone on your back. you need to stand alone. this is life'.