Lately

Hai blogger. It almost 1 am. And I can't sleep yet. I don't know since lately I had these symptoms. I hate it. Because of this thing, I could't wake up in morning. And It's been 2 class I absented. :( 


Lately, I feel so unhappy. Even though I didn't showed it but myself can feel it. I'm really sure about it. I'm kind of like what to scream to the whole world and ask why treated me like this? What am I supposed to say? I have no rights. I just human being that live temporarily in this small world. 


I have my family and friends and they always there for me, support me, loves me, convince me and most important make me happy. :) Thanks guys. I don't know what to do if these people don't exist in my life. I love them. I do. 


Every night, before go to sleep. I always thought and hoping when I wake up in the nest morning, my life will completely change to better. But it always same. Somehow, I learn something about this life. Life has teaches to how to be a strong girl, face everything with smile, be a calm person. But I always cried alone. :'(


What I need? I don't need nothing. I just want my heart heal from the wounds that had been left by irresponsible person. A person that I used loved. For some reason, I don't believe love anymore but I still miss the old days. Why love makes me happy and changed me to another person. It always like that. I fell in love, romance, fighting, cheating, lies, and broke up. 


I'm kind of person that take a thing really seriously. I don't want wasted my time with bullshit stuff. What should I? No ! but none of them appreciated me. None of them really know what love means are. Sometimes, I been confused of myself, is love was cruel or human being?